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the state of the [beloved]

5:22a - 16APRIL2010

To be loved is to be known, to be known is to be loved... okay, it might be the other way around... but just the same---to me, it is to know the self, too.

Nascent things spring as I allow myself to be one step more (and a thousand times a thousand augmented) engaged in the Love of the One that's True. It's not because His Love has become greater, for it cannot be--It has been and will always be too great to comprehend. It's just that--this season--I have been made [more] conscious of a Love existent since time and extant by reason of space.

This Love--abundant, expressive and compelling. Wheeew.

I just came from one of the replete whiles with the Lord at the mezzanine. I go there despite its current mess of scaffolds, because I love the cold waft of air deprived of us at our hidden home; the view of the sky and the perfect solitaire it ushers. And today, minus them, one thing that arrested me early--is the audible voice amplifying the kindest of kindest invitations to be [loved]--the assurance of this altruistic devotion to one imperfect--me.

Blank.
(Okay, that's just my way of letting things sink and and get in.)

Finally, I got it. Yes, I am loved. I have heard it, read it, seen it. But now--I begin to understand [some more] of it. (hehe)

Come closer. Stay with me. Speak for I will listen. The voice is clearest than it ever was.

Waaaah... (simple words... but it exposed the me that I have been and is bidding me to the new me that I can be...) I grappled for some back-words--yet I only managed a sigh. Tears flowed... and I started to speak to the Voice that also hears.


And then I found myself un-shy-ingly (=p) rehearsing some dreams... boldly story-ing some thoughts... spontaneously shared my currencies (as if He's not updated)... Asked old questions... Formulated new ones... Haha, I was so honest... For I certainly know there are no judgments; no restrictions; no doubt in the One who loves hearing and watching me [be]. 

Jesus' Love---God's love---He is Love. What a mystery! It brings in beautiful people and circumstances. It places me in the [where] I rightfully belong--the state of the [beloved] I have skipped or feasibly thought but have never entered in. 

In-Love... I guess it means---"to be inside this greatly perfect and perfecting kind of Love in Christ Jesus." Yes, in-this-Love. It is a state that makes one so much aware about the Lover and the Moment, otherwise, it's all in vain.


(woohoo-ing)

This Love---inexhaustible and evident; strong and stubborn; long and high; deep and wide.

Who can escape?




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Love of my life, Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life, Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved, Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us, It's you I died for
For better or worse, Forever we'll be
Our Lo...ve it unites us
It binds you to me, It's a mystery

Love of my life, Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'm the giver of life, I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me yeah *now*

You're my beloved, Lover I'm yours
and Death shall not part us, It's you I died for
For better or worse, Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us, and it binds you to me yea now now

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And**taste new life

"The Million Dollar Question:

Musta?"

Got that SMS just now from Bryan (our official text minister! haha). I can't help but reply: "Ang million dollar na tubag kay...? At best! :P" 'Coz i really am. Sometimes stupefied* by my own tanggal-ang-boredom ways, at least--oops! at best pala!--I get to tell myself: I still love life! To be more specific, my unique and original ('di ba pareho ung dalawa?) Rejoice Credo Lagat life! And for those of you who get to be part of it--swerte nu! Hahaha. JK! Bawal ang patola! Okay, I admit, I'm blessed--super blessed--no, super-raised-to-the-nth-power blessed to have all the people surrounding me now. You're all kisses of heaven to me!

Why am I saying all these? Am I leaving? or worst, dying? Eeengk! At best nga ako ngaun! (di nga lang perfect... pero getting there! God's grace naman daw reshapes and perfects us all... galing noh?) So, bakit nga ba halatang-halata ang drama ko? Hmm... Well, last Saturday, we passed by Baranggay Baganihan, Sitio Maharlika, Marilog District. April 25, 2009--exactly one month from the very day our lives (papaps & mamams) spinned--yeah, literally. Check the photos below... or maybe u've gone through it already! Pics always get our attention first thant texts, haha.

Noooo--I didn't cause the exhibition! Well, an hour before it happened, I was maneuvering the wheels... my sixth time to drive, actually... but i got tired... (trying to hide the real reason i was evicted from the driver's seat *wink*)... okay, cge, Papaps said, the road after Kibawi area is a little challenging, so siya muna. When the hour hand was close to make a full revolution, Mams suggested that Paps take a nap, and she'd drive. Paps succumbed. Bajada and a big truck cut over us, Paps (was still awake--di yata maiwan si Mama na sariling magmaneho--kahit 19 years na siyang licensed driver... Licensed without driving kasi! Still refreshing the pages!) said that Mama would exert brake and motion the car to the side... mejo nataranta yata c Mama, ung accelerator ang naapakan niya... Imagine the car running faster (when it shouldn't) at a downhill slope! Paps shouted "Brake! Brake!" daw! Hinabol ni mama... pero too late na, kasi napunta na rin sa side ung car... sobrang nasa side, na sa canal na pala dumadaan si Rah-Rah (pangalan po pala ng sasakyan! haha)... When mom stepped on the brake from a high speed motion... Something amazing happened... Voila! The car turned upside-down!

Mom was shouting daw a battery of I'm-sorry's and Jesus's! Papaps was praying hard, too. Then mom, shouted: Si Rejoice! Check Rejoice! Saan ba kasi ako? Ayun, sa likod... natutulog! Remember the Mark4 story? Jesus was sleeping on a cushion-in a a boat-during a fierce storm! Haha, wala lang, naka-relate lang... Pero di naman ako si Jesus... before I could have said Be Still to the car... Still na rin talaga siya when I opened my eyes... I did feel the turbulence before it ceased, but the only thing I managed to do was close my already-closed eyes (in slumber, diba? mantika matulog, eh) and pray the most heart-felt prayer of confession and repentence in 5seconds. I really thought, it's gonna be heaven the next time I use my eyelids!

3:15pm. March 25, 2009.

A teaser.

A heavenly illustration.

Another kiss from heaven.

All three of us realized we're still so alive, yet trapped inside Rah-Rah's damaged body. Paps immediately broke-open one window and we got out of the car through it. We checked ourselves from injuries--zero! PTL! We were sooo joyful that at best, we're physically A-okay! My dad hugged mama and I... and continued hugging mama while I tried to call Bem and Lai. In the highest level of aftershock, they didn't notice that we were at public's eye. Haha. Hindi sila artistahin. Naturally loving lang--lalo na these years...

So I phoned Lai. Told her the details. She called 911 for us. 911 came. (bilis noh? hndeh, the way i said it lang... they arrived mga 35min after pa).

I saw a spot where I could collect myself together. And I told God: Thank You that You Are Real. He answered, Welcome to Part II. I was about to ask why there's a Part II? But Paps came and said, (tumatawa siya) Doys, same mission. Same vision. We're still gonna do it. Then he asked if I wanted water.

...

Remembering that life-changing moment, I now understand that Part II's are better. I'm at my best while in Part II. Kasama ko kau, eh! Haha... And I said to myself, I'm gonna do better this time... I'm gonna love more... give more... learn more... worship more... smile more... save more... work more... and just do more... for JC-Love and for all He calls me to serve.

:>

take two.

opportunity in danger

oil crisis.
rice crisis.
leadership crisis.
emotional crisis.
parenting crisis.

It's not just in the Philippines.
World wide, it is.
Crisis is a situation that has reached
an extremely difficult or dangerous situation.
This definition scares me.
But hey, I have heard that
the Chinese character for crisis








is a combination of [wei] and [ji].
meaning, dangerous (wei) + opportunity (ji).
Haha, crisis simply means
"opportunity" in danger!

So, get over with the long face
and start circling the eyes
in excitement of the dawning
of God's work--which actually becomes
evident--in the midst of crises!


*by the way, rejoice is
欣喜 or xīn xǐ
in Chinese!

independence day

caged.
this pigeon was a willing captive
of the changeling.
now they've grown.
the one inside the iron bars.
the other outside watching.
who thought
a bird could imprison another?
enough.
it's time to stop guarding.
no more hoarding.
it's time to set somebody free.
fly little one.
i hope you still know how to fly.

post script:
thanks for staying
and gracing my years.

99 balloons



James 4:14b
For what is your life, it is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.

a typical day i guess



I slept so late last night since i worried much about today's urgent service Youth To The Nations was called for--that is to serve Holy Cross of Davao College's freshmen orientation. haha, more than the urgency, it was an honor of course to welcome the freshmen. We set up a booth and provided a bowl of verses (promises!) for them to pick. We gave out free sign pens (an investment!) and asked the freshies to sign-up for the org. More of a benefit, eh? Definitely.

Almost the same thing happened with Y2dN-UM. We were the only club who assisted the incoming first year students in their enrollment. Walked them through the whole process and then of course, recruited them to Y2dN!
Why would we forget USEP? Well, Mrs. Villarente said in a flick to one of the university's campus clubs should welcome the freshmen! A given, yes, she was talking to one of our leaders! (Chem2x to be specific!) So there the banner hangs and forms open for the freshies!
Ah, an academic year that holds a lot of surprises!

Amazing coincidences of opportunities? No. We prayed for them. And now we have lots of contacts to consolidate! thank you, Lord.
My day ended with a tiring walk around Uyanguren area (China Town!) with AJ. Saw one of our churchmates who gave us money for a Jolly snack! haha... and of course, Youth Reload. Who can get by with a week without it?
And now I'm here. finishing my pinataka dish (my own salad invention of nata de coco and other creams!).
I have one fine day to close. Fruitful day? Call it splendid! Busy? Exhausting.

I'm closely closing it now.
and...
with a hope that tomorrow will be another day of leaping from being stuck in day 1 of my 21-day challenge!!!
good night everyone.
<><

boredom



1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?

28

2. Do you think you'll be married by

then? Yup. Thank u Lord.

3. What do you look forward to most in

the next 3 months?

Singapore & China Trip, Encounters & Eagurlz Laag

4. Who was the last person you called,

and who called you last?

Ate Mely

5. Have you ever played a team sport?

Uh-huh

6. Who was the last person to text you?

Laurie Anne

7. Current thoughts?

Reload Oxygen and the Coffin

8. What were you doing at midnight

last night? Zzzz….

11. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?

It’s still 8:48 (get waxed probably)

12. How many states have you visited?

Haven’t been to the US yet

13. If you could be anywhere right

now, where would it be?

Bogota or Miama, FL

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or

bare feet?

bare

15. Are you a social person?

yes

16. What was the last thing you drank?

Iced tea

17. Favorite ice cream?

Strawberry!

18. What is your favorite dessert?

Nata de coco with sweet corn

19. What’s your favorite color?

Chocolate brown + defined pink,,, and purple!

20. What jelly do you put on your PBJ?

blueberry

21. Do you like coffee?

Yes (make it hazelnut)

22. How many glasses of water a day do

you drink on average?

4

23. What do you drink in the morning?

Fresh milk

24. Would you rather kiss someone with

or without a tongue ring?

without

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of

the bed?

Yes.

26. Do you know how to play poker?

nope

27. What's so good about Fridays?

Youth Reload

28. Any plans for this week?

My girls would be sleeping over tonight,

My parents are coming home,

Water baptism 2mw

30. How big is your TV?

No TV

31. Ever stolen a street sign?

Haha, never.

32. Do you keep a piggy bank?

Just opened it last week! And I got 2K.

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?

No.

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?

Pool for swimming.

Ocean for reflections.

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an

aisle seat?

Window seat. Always.

37. Do you know how to drive a stick

shift?

No.

38. What is your favorite thing to

spend money on?

Load.

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

No.

41. Can you roll your tongue?

No.

42. What should you be doing now?

MEIL assignments.

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Not anymore.

44. What is the main ring tone on your

phone?

Doraemon (b4)

45. Do you still have clothes from

when you were little?

No.

46. What is the color of your bedroom

walls?

Ice pink.

47. Do you shut off the water when you

brush your teeth?

Yes.

48. Do you like someone right now?

Yes.

49. Do you currently hate someone?

No.

50. Where are your best friends?

Cebu & Davao

famished


i really never thought things would be this way up at a silver year. you get to travel places, meet new people and lead a thriving generation of love-struck and time-hungry people. what a privilege!

everyday's a level-up day lately and circles of uncertainty keep brushing on me. nonetheless, divine petitions keep me at a moving hold.

who thought a simple life is always complex at a point? we have to juggle all the daily requirements to pass one single test of faithfulness, a.k.a. character!--one that comes at a battery of little but long trials. an almost perplexing thought of ruggedness of an unassured future makes me think that truly God is bigger than i think He is. it's a lovely point to make that if what i come to experience are circumstances i can manage alone, then there's no need for a big God in me.

so what else is there in simplicity? is it music or stillness? a sunrise or noisy evening? badminton or driving? photos or messages? an upcoming program or cell meetings? the staff gathering or MEIL assignments? apps or RTW? jeans or skirt? red or gray? muscled or mushy? load lifting or apathy? chocolate or pink? mango shake or lugaw? my gurls or my journal?

all things were pressing hard on me, one time. then, today, i'm famished of all their existence!

sigh.

life is truly cool for a simple girl who has a Daddy long legs! (woooooo, you bet He's always up for a rescue every time she's hard-pressed, and oh, well, abandoned).

and....love is indeed a miracle when it is truly felt. ask me!


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