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In High School, I was already good at pretensions--trying to live up to the expectations of the "experts." I was successful in become a mind throb. I made them believe that I was that good. But really, I only became a pleaser and lost "me." I am not much of a crier. But when I saw this vid, I really felt my heart break into pieces in shame of really working too hard to be loved by the One I serve. Over the years, I had been like the others who wanted to be somebody I thought people would only love to hang out with. Somebody who is just like the rest.

But hey, I wasn't left all that. I found Jesus and He brought freedom to my captive soul. Woohoo!

So every time I watch this clip, I am reminded that when, again, I try to do all the tiring stuff of pleasing people, I am in the rut.

To be loved is to be known. To be loved is to stay assured that somebody loves us the way we are. No pushing too hard.