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Musta?"

Got that SMS just now from Bryan (our official text minister! haha). I can't help but reply: "Ang million dollar na tubag kay...? At best! :P" 'Coz i really am. Sometimes stupefied* by my own tanggal-ang-boredom ways, at least--oops! at best pala!--I get to tell myself: I still love life! To be more specific, my unique and original ('di ba pareho ung dalawa?) Rejoice Credo Lagat life! And for those of you who get to be part of it--swerte nu! Hahaha. JK! Bawal ang patola! Okay, I admit, I'm blessed--super blessed--no, super-raised-to-the-nth-power blessed to have all the people surrounding me now. You're all kisses of heaven to me!

Why am I saying all these? Am I leaving? or worst, dying? Eeengk! At best nga ako ngaun! (di nga lang perfect... pero getting there! God's grace naman daw reshapes and perfects us all... galing noh?) So, bakit nga ba halatang-halata ang drama ko? Hmm... Well, last Saturday, we passed by Baranggay Baganihan, Sitio Maharlika, Marilog District. April 25, 2009--exactly one month from the very day our lives (papaps & mamams) spinned--yeah, literally. Check the photos below... or maybe u've gone through it already! Pics always get our attention first thant texts, haha.

Noooo--I didn't cause the exhibition! Well, an hour before it happened, I was maneuvering the wheels... my sixth time to drive, actually... but i got tired... (trying to hide the real reason i was evicted from the driver's seat *wink*)... okay, cge, Papaps said, the road after Kibawi area is a little challenging, so siya muna. When the hour hand was close to make a full revolution, Mams suggested that Paps take a nap, and she'd drive. Paps succumbed. Bajada and a big truck cut over us, Paps (was still awake--di yata maiwan si Mama na sariling magmaneho--kahit 19 years na siyang licensed driver... Licensed without driving kasi! Still refreshing the pages!) said that Mama would exert brake and motion the car to the side... mejo nataranta yata c Mama, ung accelerator ang naapakan niya... Imagine the car running faster (when it shouldn't) at a downhill slope! Paps shouted "Brake! Brake!" daw! Hinabol ni mama... pero too late na, kasi napunta na rin sa side ung car... sobrang nasa side, na sa canal na pala dumadaan si Rah-Rah (pangalan po pala ng sasakyan! haha)... When mom stepped on the brake from a high speed motion... Something amazing happened... Voila! The car turned upside-down!

Mom was shouting daw a battery of I'm-sorry's and Jesus's! Papaps was praying hard, too. Then mom, shouted: Si Rejoice! Check Rejoice! Saan ba kasi ako? Ayun, sa likod... natutulog! Remember the Mark4 story? Jesus was sleeping on a cushion-in a a boat-during a fierce storm! Haha, wala lang, naka-relate lang... Pero di naman ako si Jesus... before I could have said Be Still to the car... Still na rin talaga siya when I opened my eyes... I did feel the turbulence before it ceased, but the only thing I managed to do was close my already-closed eyes (in slumber, diba? mantika matulog, eh) and pray the most heart-felt prayer of confession and repentence in 5seconds. I really thought, it's gonna be heaven the next time I use my eyelids!

3:15pm. March 25, 2009.

A teaser.

A heavenly illustration.

Another kiss from heaven.

All three of us realized we're still so alive, yet trapped inside Rah-Rah's damaged body. Paps immediately broke-open one window and we got out of the car through it. We checked ourselves from injuries--zero! PTL! We were sooo joyful that at best, we're physically A-okay! My dad hugged mama and I... and continued hugging mama while I tried to call Bem and Lai. In the highest level of aftershock, they didn't notice that we were at public's eye. Haha. Hindi sila artistahin. Naturally loving lang--lalo na these years...

So I phoned Lai. Told her the details. She called 911 for us. 911 came. (bilis noh? hndeh, the way i said it lang... they arrived mga 35min after pa).

I saw a spot where I could collect myself together. And I told God: Thank You that You Are Real. He answered, Welcome to Part II. I was about to ask why there's a Part II? But Paps came and said, (tumatawa siya) Doys, same mission. Same vision. We're still gonna do it. Then he asked if I wanted water.

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Remembering that life-changing moment, I now understand that Part II's are better. I'm at my best while in Part II. Kasama ko kau, eh! Haha... And I said to myself, I'm gonna do better this time... I'm gonna love more... give more... learn more... worship more... smile more... save more... work more... and just do more... for JC-Love and for all He calls me to serve.

:>

take two.

(one of three blogs I wish to pen this week… okay, congratulate me kay nadasig napud!)

just finished editing the video compilation of my girls' one-liner testimonies... haha, natuwa ako... finally, i figured out how chroma-keying is done!
it's going to be a full night this friday, noh? (talking to myself...) we're still half-way the preps, but as the global-melancholy that i am, i take more lakwatsa sa net, than preparing... and xempre, on-my-knees and facedown sessions are musts!

some things make this coming reload different:

i. "Ptr. Ave Moment" (Ate Raya translated his fam name into English--Ptr. I-thought--galing ni Ate Raya! Haha, pero it doesn't lessen the fact that we honor our leaders... hm... come, let's reason together! wahaha!) i thought we're hosting the 24th's... and just last sunday, Bem checked the sked for me--it's gonna be this friday na... so, we're cramming (as we usually do!)... nakaka-score na naman ang pressure sa akin... at least, it brings out the best (in me? in-us nalang!)... nagiging best friend ko na yata... (a new friend from an old company, huh?)

ii. "walang puyatan"—pero whole day work nga lang… not-to-mention the breaks!!! But since we’re still in advent, di natin alam... pero so far, all arranged naman... what else are yet-to-be-done? Ppt Presentation? (pics are ready—it’ll be final by friday); Outline (half-way through; revelations keep coming!); stage deco (the girls are doing it tonight); Dance Presentation (Jing's the girl!); Program (my ever trusted Langga & Kilet); PAW (Toto's leading); Announcement Media (Allyza & me are doing it mamaya!)Haay… I sooo love my girls!

iii. "something old, something new" --what's something old?--the basics... prayer... prayer... prayer... and a little conceptualizing!!! Since the theme is Warrior Chicks--the environmental theme would be China--as in Mulan! Why? Hmm... See you sa Reload!!!
Something new naman... Ung Chroma-Keyed video! (halata ba'ng ang saya ko talaga? waaah....); and the remix of chinese songs for the dance which Jing asked of me... my first time to edit, and i think i'm enjoying it!

iv. and... haha... i'm blogging before the event happens! (okay, sorry for the usually late Reload blogs especially the Jacob-Rachel one...)

you might ask, bakit ba kina-career naming sobra ang Reload? For the Eagurlz (and the whole youth reload, I believe), it’s WORSHIP. Whatever we do—whether we speak, dance, sing, challenge an offering, usher people, act, write scripts, edit videos, capture God-moments with a camera, manage media or intercede—it’s all Worship before the King. And we long for every turn that we get to do it… (once a month by the way! And a rest in January and May!) It’s also SERVICE. We get to serve the Church—the reloaders in bringing the Message to this generation. And, it’s FUN… bonding and consolidation for everyone! Whatever we do, masaya naman—that’s because you like the people you’re with… Ganyan din cgro sa heaven noh? You get to be with the people you like (and love!) for like, forever! (Reload preps pa nga lang, masaya na! Imagine life na bawal ang word na “end!”)

so thanks guys for sharing the excitement with me... there's one thing that i'd like you to do, though... and please do it over (plus over plus over and over plus again--kahit until this Fri lang!): Please pray for us!

Much thanks!


So, cge, gtg, allyza's coming na! toodles! ;)

four hours of hugging pillows and hiding under the sheets... how time squeaked by! and now i'm in full senses again... (at 2:38am)... a little bored, well, at least entertained by my first cup of coffee (first? ...and will delight in a sequel!) i'm just forcing myself to finish one so i can take a spoon of mucolytic in a while... yeah, i coughed myself to wake! at least the hacking (not to mention, barking) only disturbed myself...

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i didn't know mamams own a very orange (neon pa nga) umbrella... (it's in front of me now--as if it's gonna move! and no, i'm not relocating)...

it's Saturday na pala noh... what were the highlights this week?
...the primary twelve's photoshoot... buffet lunch (and siyempre, buffet pud ang katawa!)...
...the Milan talk with Corie... it swoop me literally... perte uy!
...the stroll... threesome, we (mom & lai) looked for something to munch and ended up lounging at some coffee place... nagkwentuhan... nagtawanan... mayaman naman kami sa ganyan! haaay, ang saya ng gabi--what could a melancholy expect from sanguines! and now, solong-solo ko ang silence ng sala... i wish one of them would wake up and dish out a story... (i'll try to whoop a little louder... hehe)
...the pizza birthday (happy birthday, migz! hala uy, 23 ka na... magminyo najud ka? di pa unta ko sugot, pero murag sugot man si papa... haha... good luck nalang jud sa maminyuan... hahaha... mag-ampo jud kog buotan nga sister-in-law...)
...Eagurlz prayer at Biba's--marathon... lahat nanalo sa endurance... soaking and encouragement through the Word... (pikot kaayo akong mata pag-uli... totoinkz!)
...Eagurlz concept night--tambay, prayer and brain storming for the next Reload to spearhead... Gogogo Warrior Chicks!!!
...online meeting with Janeth (no running away!)
...registration payments; pastors' allowances;
...the loooong worship practice...
...leading worship (woah... woah...)
...Re-Encounter (topic: Creating Leaders Who Are Sure of Themselves);
...hearting the book, Girlfriend, You're A B.A.B.E. (malaman!)
...last night's footwashing
...delirou5?'s back to the start, my heart is heavy; feels like it's time to dream again... it's gonna rain... yeah-yeah...

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Sip. Gulp. Sip.
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To a beautiful you:
1. Do beautiful things.
2. Take worship walks.
3. Laugh well. (it's okay to cough, but express a hearty cackle when it desists... haaay...)


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3:31
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Short of three inches to be a foot from the console's edge,
There, the chocolate sat.
Wooing the one it's aimed at.
'Is it for me?' I asked.

A delightful display, An intriguing sight;
A cautious stare, A hesitant will;
A hazy montage, A silent answer;

Sweet cocoa.
For me, I pray.

discussion will be posted not later than Feb13, 2010...

Son of God
by: Starfield

Son of God, Shaper of the stars
each one ravishing...
U shape us and position us just where U want us 2b...
You alone, The dweller of my heart
yes, U r...
don't just reside, but take control...
considering i'm weaker than before...
Mighty King, How beautiful You are, how beautiful
i take another day gazing at U...

Son of God, The Father's gift to us
Precious...
You alone, Were broken on the alter of love
I'm still captivated...
Precious Lamb, Our freedom's in Your blood,
It's in your blood
Just one drop--able to cleanse me...
yet U gave Ur all...
i'm indebted...

Jesus, Oh Holy One, I sing to You, Forgiven
I love U still...
Savior, I'm overcome
With Your great love for me
yet U outlove me...

Son of God,Strength beyond compare
I need your strong arm...
You alone, The darkness cannot bear
refulgent... and it's taming me...
Lord of love, Your kindness draws me near
It draws me
and draw me nearer Lord...

Son of God, Prophecy of old
my present lover...
You alone, Redeemer of my soul
my rope...
Come again, And lead your people home
Come lead us home
call me ms. eager...

You are worthy, You are worthy
You are worthy of all my praise
and i desire to give more of my all...

You are beautiful, You are beautiful
I will lift up my hands and sing
oh i just can't stop...

my cousin, Christine Hope, had been here since
new year's eve.
we have been inviting her since
"i could not remember."
my uncle doesn't let her travel without
somebody from their fam accompany her.
but finally her dad succumbed
and she's here!
(she's graduated college, anyway!) ;)
i wasn't able to go with them (w/ lalai & mamams)
at crocodile park last saturday night
(praise & worship prax kasi...
at nagpower-off the whole AM nung Sunday! haha...)
Lalai & Migz drove her to people's park
then to our cousins' house
last sunday night
(again, di ako nakasama...
i was unwell,
yet felt well when the eagurlz nestled with me!
mbuti nlng anjan kau girls...)
so yesterday, it was my treat...
Sinabi rin kasi ni Papaps na nakakagaling
ng sipon at ubo ang dagat...
so ayon, we packed our stuff
to Blujaz Resort at the
Island Garden City of Samal (IGaCoS)...
We brought AJ along...
ala din naman siyang gawin eh...
hehe...

Hope texted her f&f to make them jelly...
haha...
it was also my first time at the newly constructed resort.
it was serene...
it melted the christmas* buzz in me
and it buffeted summer immediately.

the girls freshened at the pool
while clad with (nooo... not the strings!)
their child-like hearts.

we dipped in the cool, waveless ocean
and unraveled our hearts out.
(lam nu na un... hot seat! haha)

the water, the sky, the sand...
and xempre... the gurlz...
all composed...
oh so ideal!
sabi pa nga ni Hope,
"Ate, this is such a perfect holiday!"
i thought so, too.
i love davao.
i love beach again.